I Want To Be Here
“Actually I don’t want to go, actually I want to stay here and experience every season with you……” That’s a song I often hear, although it has been popular for a couple of years. When I hear this song, I usually miss my parents, husband and little dogs.
I first heard this song when I was in middle school, but I think it just can reflect my mood now. I left home for university when I was 18 years old. I haven’t lived with my parents for five years. As they gradually become older, I want to accompany and take care of them, the older they become, the stronger the idea comes. Hence, when I hear this song, I usually miss my parents most.
As to my husband, I have the same feeling. As you know, I got married just before coming here, even I didn’t have time to spend my honeymoon. Chinese people believe that new married couple should be together. But in order to studying and making us life better, we decided to be separate for a few years. You can imagine how much I miss him. Consequently, I really don’t want to come here because of my parents and husband.
In addition, I also miss my doggys. I see them as my little sisters. We played together, ate together and sometimes slept together. In my eyes, they are not dogs but my friends. I fear that when I go back home, they cannot recognize me or don’t want to play with me because they may think I abandon them for several months. I want to accompany them end to die. Therefore, when I hear this song, the homesick feeling rises from my deep heart.
I always listen to the song on the way home or late at night. It makes me homesick, the only thing I want to do is calling and talking to them. But I know I must go ahead. I often encourage myself that wipe the tears and continue until you succeed.
I have read Ann's and Angela's journals.
